48-year old female, first seen November 14, 2008.
She has had angina due to vasospasms for the past two years. The symptom picture was one of classic angina, but there was no blockage of the arteries. The patient was rather annoyed by the angina.
“They’d tear each other apart!”
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She would hide a lot as a child to get away from the conflict. She has had concerns about security and money for most of her life.
At the same time she has always had a strong desire for escape and freedom.
“I had horses all of my life, since age 4. It was the whole freedom thing, galloping off with a horse. It was my escape and expression.”
P: Stramonium 200 CH
This improved her condition by about 50% where it stalled. I gave natrum-mur at this time, which did nothing at all.
Finally on June 3, 09 she gave me the real keys to her case.
“The feeling of the heart being squeezed is very much like a block, a barrier. I’m always pushing it. It feels like a cage. Right when I want to expand, take a deep breath – it fastens around me. It says “No getting big for you! Don’t get too big for your boots and no, you can’t go and have fun.”
What is it like to be big?
“To be free-flowing, easier. I can lift more with the same effort. Breathing is easy. I’m happy and cheerful and content. I’m worry-free and things smell good.”
“I grew up on a farm but had allergies, so I would not dare to take a deep breath. It would compress me and make me feel smaller. I like to breathe big, rich, feel fulfilled, happy. The restriction comes from outside, making me smaller, keeping me where I’m supposed to be.”
Tell me more about restriction?
“I have a picture of a cage around the ribs in my mind. There is a big cage around my chest and a smaller one around my heart. It is like expanded metal, dull grey in colour.”
“It seems pretty rigid and solid and permanent. It is cold. It does not care. It is there to keep the body safe and me in line.”
What would happen if it did not do that?
“I’d be unrestrained. I would be ridiculous, silly, extravagant and irresponsible. Everything would fall apart, all order would cease, I’d be late for school and the clothes would not be washed.”
By now I was thinking that she might require a remedy made from a bird. So I asked her how she felt about birds.
“I would never own one. The idea of the cage is horrible. I love watching and feeding them. They have a really neat perspective on things, quite elevated and special. Birds can see things from all angles, on the ground, from the air, from trees, close up and far away. They are flexible and motile.”
“They have a very simple existence, very life and death, but very straightforward.”
“And virtually no responsibility.”
“They build their wing and heart muscles as a side effect of having a great time!”
It was amazing. Those were her exact words, “building their heart muscles as a side effect of having a great time”, exactly what she would love to do, but could not as a result of feeling the excessive and impossible responsibility of resolving all conflict. She described her heart as being in a cage and was longing for freedom. In birds she could see the ability to see from all angles, which, interestingly, is important in conflict resolution, for being free and for having fun, which is how she wanted to feel herself. She experienced her whole being as small and confined when she wanted to be big and play.
I decided to give a homeopathic remedy made from bald eagle, haliaetus leukocephalus, 200 CH.
Email feedback June 14, 09:
“After I saw you I had the most incredible flying dream. I was with someone and we were very high up in the sky. He was showing me around and I was really surprised at how smooth and beautiful and frictionless everything was at this height. The patterns of the fields and rivers and forests were breathtakingly perfect. I also commented on there being no wind while we were flying, it was so easy and comfortable and effortless… He said “that’s the way it always is – it is set up that way.”
“On Saturday we went for a hike up that hill we often climb and we know exactly where we have to rest on the steep parts for my angina. I did not have to stop. I had a small amount of tightness, but not enough to make me stop. Last time we went I had to stop for ten minutes half way up!”
“We’ve been for a couple of walks since and I’d say there is a definite improvement. So the eagle remedy is clearly a winner.”
This patient had done very well on a homeopathic prescription of bald eagle. The angina is 90% improved and her whole outlook has changed. She no longer feels as if she is responsible for everything and has a lot more fun and freedom in her life.
In April of 2010 she complained about some joint problems in her fingers which had not improved with Hali – l. At that point I gave her Syphilinum 1MK, as a result of reading Jeremy Sherr’s book on Syphilis. He feels that Eagle is a syphilitic remedy. It marvelously improved her joints. She is still under my care and is doing very well in every regard more than two years later.
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